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So In Need  

At the end of my rope

I have anxiety disorder, sometimes raging agoraphobia and also fell in 2007, causing two vertebrae to bulge and also did some nerve damage to my left arm. I suffer from severe back pain, hip and leg pain everyday and I drop things with my left had constantly! I tried and tried to push on, through the pain and depression I had but finally cracked and I was laid off in 2010 from my job for not being able to handle the pain or the pressure and stress and shortly thereafter met a guy who I will call Jake. Jake has panic disorder, agoraphobia and dependent personality disorder. His family had abandoned him, his friends had become fatigued with his panic attacks. He was in a bad situation being abused by someone who was taking advantage of his disabilities. My mother had over 20 years of suffering this type of illness and was in an abusive marriage, and I had had my own issues with anxiety and depression so I felt I had to help. I invited him to come live in my home. I told him I would do all I could to help. I arranged some free therapy. Introduced him to my friends and family. Gave him all the kindness and love I had in me.

I had hoped it would help. It has not. He is still depressed, still agoraphobic and the worst part for me, still has dependent personality disorder. Now for those who don’t know what this is, well it means I can’t leave the house without him and naturally he can’t leave the house without me. We have not been more than 50 feet from each other in the year he has been here. He can’t go and do anything like movies, bowling, shopping or anything like that so I can’t either, when I myself feel able to do any of those things that is. Don’t feel sorry for me though. I have fallen in love and this is a small sacrifice to make sure he is okay.

We both applied for disability five months ago but it is still working through the process. My unemployment ran out six weeks ago so we have no more income and to make matters worse my father who has early onset dementia with psychotic features had no where else to go so he is living with us now. This has all put serious strain on me. How to pay bills with no money? How do I help this man I love get better? How do I get my sick dad, who has no one else to help him get to appointments with doctors and therapist when I can’t leave the house myself? How do I get better?

I am in serious need of help. I need to be able to at least keep the house and keep the lights on. I don’ t know what to do. I am lost. There is no help for someone who tries to help others. I called the department of family and children services and asked if there was any government program or even charity they knew of that I could apply for help with and they acted like I was a crazy person. She was like, “I’m sorry, I don’t know what to do for you.”

I am out of savings and my bills are due. I have appealed to family and friends but they are all strapped themselves. I have sold my van, a computer and anything else I had around my house to survive but I am tapped out. Now I am here, depressed and hurting all the time, my friend is here, depressed and we both are having a lot of anxiety. My dad is here and has no where else to go and I am so scared. I have never been in a situation where I had not only my life but the lives of others in my hands and I can’t do anything.

I feel helpless, hopeless and sometimes think it’s not worth going on. I just need some help making my bills for now until disability comes through. Then some of my stress will be reduced. Some that is. But that is most pressing right now. Like I said, keeping the lights on and a phone and car going in case of emergencies.

On top of everything I feel so alone. I have to try and smile because I don’t want my friend or dad to worry. I won’t them to know I am gonna be here for them and not let them down. But I don’t know where to turn to get the help so that does not happen. I am afraid. I am scared. I am depressed and stressed. I need help.
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Trishs1978  

Help for depression and anxiety, also a thanks for your prayers and support throughout the seasons!

Has anyone come across medical help thats not medicaid? Im having problems with my medicaid and will be months until I can re-apply there. Im having awful depression and anxiety, I spend off and on days in bed and crying, also not eating. I feel like an awful mother, my son is taken care of I live with family. I just want and miss being up and going and playing and doing all the things I used to do. I feel at a loss I need *mental emotional help* if anyone knows of anything, as I am on the downside of money, pretty much not a penny to my name, and having trouble finding anything or anyone of help, but Im still looking around my area. Also my son ended up with a great Christmas, the best part was that he was more interested in playing with everyone and he had a wonderful day!! God blessed me and my son, and thank you for the prayers!
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crazyquilt  

Listing Of Clinical Trials For Anxiety Disorders

Intravenous Immunoglobulin for PANDAS (Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorders Associated With Streptococcal Infections).
Interventional study. Background: - Some children experience a sudden onset of symptoms similar to those found in obsessive-compulsive disorder that may be caused by the body's reaction to an infection with streptococcal bacteria, most commonly seen as strep throat or scarlet fever. Ages 4-12. Locations in New Haven, CT; Bethesda, MD; Oklahoma City, OK.

  • PET Whole Body Distribution Studies Using [11C]CUMI.
    Evaluation study. Background: - Researchers studying new treatments for major depressive disorder are looking at how medications to treat depression act on the brain chemical serotonin, which interacts with specific serotonin receptors on brain cells. Ages 18-65. Location in Bethesda, MD.
  • Anxiety and Recurrent Abdominal Pain in Children.
    Interventional study. This study aims to determine whether citalopram is a useful, well-tolerated, and safe treatment for children and adolescents ages 7 to 18 years with functional abdominal pain. Ages 7-18. Location in Columbus, OH.
  • RCT of an Acceptance-based Behavior Therapy for GAD.
    Interventional study. The purpose of this study is to determine whether acceptance-based behavior therapy for GAD results in greater symptom reduction and increased quality of life than applied relaxation. Ages 18 and over. Location in Boston, MA.
  • Assessing Different Methods of Anxiety Care in Pediatric Settings.
    Interventional study. This study will compare the effectiveness of delivering cognitive behavioral therapy for children with anxiety disorders through in-person contact versus through workbooks and telephone communication. Ages 8-13. Location in San Diego, CA.
  • School-Based Treatment for Anxious Children.
    Interventional study. This study will determine the effectiveness of a school-based cognitive behavior therapy in urban, predominantly low-income, African-American children diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. Ages 7-17. Location in Baltimore, MD.
  • Evaluating the Effects of Stress in Pregnancy.
    Evaluation study. This study will evaluate pregnant women with a past or current diagnosis of depression or anxiety to gain a better understanding of how these disorders can affect an infant's development, both during and after pregnancy. Ages 18-45. Location in Atlanta, GA.
  • Preventing Anxiety Disorders in Youth.
    Interventional study. This study will determine the effectiveness of a cognitive behavioral therapy program in preventing anxiety disorders in at-risk children. Ages 8-12. Location in Baltimore, MD.
  • The Psychobiology of Childhood Temperament.
    Evaluation study. The purpose of this study is to use brain imaging technology to examine brain changes that occur in children when they are exposed to various kinds of emotional tasks and to determine if these changes are related to the child's temperament. Ages 7-25. Locations in Bethesda, MD; College Park, MD.
  • Brain Changes in Fear.
    Evaluation study. The purpose of this study is to use brain imaging technology to investigate brain changes in people exposed to predictable versus unpredictable unpleasant stimuli. Ages 18-40. Location in Bethesda, MD.
  • Evaluation of Patients With Mood and Anxiety Disorders and Healthy Volunteers.
    Evaluation study. The purpose of this protocol is to allow for the careful screening of patients and healthy volunteers for participation in research protocols in the Mood and Anxiety Disorders Program (MAP) at the National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) and for the collection of natural history data. Ages 3-85. Location in Bethesda, MD.
  • Brain Tissue Collection for Neuropathological Studies.
    Evaluation study. The purpose of this study is to collect and study the brain tissue of deceased individuals to learn more about the nervous system and mental disorders. Locations in Washington, DC; Bethesda, MD; Fairfax, VA.

Search ClinicalTrials.gov for other NIH studies on Anxiety Disorders.

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Anonymous  

Coping with Lupus

Hello everyone! I have a question does anyone know what else to do when
you have LUPUS? Iam so sick all the time but I have to go on with life to watch my grandchildren grow up. but this pain sometimes is unbearable I just remain in my bed. I had a total knee replaced no problem now the other knee is giving me problems the bone doctor says its a Popiteal artery
when the blood vessels get in a ball and set behind the knee cap??? crazy
anyway I can't take anymore pain medicine they make me so sick .
thanks for any info?

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godschild.zn  

About godschild.zn

help i have a friend who lost her son and husband in a awful tradgedy7 weks ago she is on anxiety meds and is really battling now she really needs financial aid for two months to get back on her feet she has a child they really deserve a break guys please is someone genuine out there heeeeeelp please
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bnd_mns  

About bnd_mns

Hello-

I am twenty five a wife and a mother of three. For about a year and half now I have been struggling with anxiety/ severe panic attacks. I rush to the hospital frequently thinking that I am dying, and I pretty much afraid of everything out there. I want to badly to be my old self and a good mother to my children. I have been in threapy for about seven months and it has helped some, but I need something more intensive. I found a rehab type program to go to for help, but it cost 1500 dollars. Our insurance does not cover this and we don't have that kind of money just lying around. We have tried to get a loan, but in this economy these days we were denied. If anyone knows any programs or charities that I can contact to help pay. Please let me know. I am very desperate and I want so badly not to have to live in fear anymore.

Thank you

Nikki

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Starshine  

Chicago, Illinois Mental Health Services

CLICK HERE

To access the website and the information below. 

Every individual who suffers from a mental condition has different circumstances that will require a unique set of services/level of care to address their specific needs. The Division of Mental Health (DMH) provides a wide variety of services at all levels for adults and children throughout the state. These services are offered through hundreds of DMH partners called "Providers" (i.e. mental health clinics, agencies and hospitals). Providers serve as 'front doors' to enter the publicly funded system of mental health care.

The "Say It Out Loud" campaign is simple, powerful and positive - check it out!
If you are in crisis now

If you or someone you are concerned about are in a crisis state and at risk of harm to yourself, others, or property, or at risk of psychiatric hospitalization, you may exercise either of the following three options:

    * Call 911 (Police and fire department personnel are trained responders to situations involving mental health issues.).
    * Go to the Emergency room at a local area hospital.
    * Contact the nearest provider of crisis psychiatric services.

For non-emergency Mental Health Services
Contact Us

    * Use the DHS Office Locator and search for Mental Health to find the nearest Community Mental Health Center(s)
    * View the Providers/Partners for the Division of Mental Health
    * TTY: (312) 814-5050.

Types of Mental Health Treatment

Types of Mental Health Treatment - A range of Mental Health Services are available depending upon your needs. Highly trained and qualified clinicians can then help you through the assessment process to determine your needs and possible care options.
Programs/Services

    * Permanent Supportive Housing
    * PSH Bridge Subsidy Program

More Information & Resources

    * The "Say It Out Loud" campaign is simple, powerful and positive - check it out!
    * Mental Health Brochures
    * Consumers Focus Groups
    * Mental Health Region Maps (pdf)
    * Mental Health Dictionary
    * Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act (HIPAA)
    * Recovery Support Services

 

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Lo-Lo  

No Fear! Yeah, Right! by Dick Innes

The good news is that God is with us.. always...he will never leave us or forsake us...hence to counteract our fears we can learn to place our confidence in him and not in ourselves.  It's important, too, not to allow fears to control us for if we don't control (or resolve) them, they will control us.

                                      SUGGESTED PRAYER:

"Dear God, thank you that no matter what circumstances I find myself in, you are always there for me.  Thank you too for your promise to never leave me or forsake me.  Help me to learn how to fully put my trust in you so I will not be afraid.  Thank you for hearing and answering my prayer.  Gratefully, in Jesus' name, Amen."

Lo-Lo's comment:

This particular article and prayer is something i have to read and pray often.  I am in constant binds due to health, finances, and love and alot of times i get scared and afraid which causes me to get anxiety and stress.  and stress is what almost killed me.  so i need this as a reassurance that remember your faith and trust in God because he is here for me, never left me, and has already worked it out for me.

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moominmama  

Please help me with my finances, I am in serious debt and need donations

Thank you for taking the time to read my page.  I am 20 years old and have suffered from depression and anxiety since the age of 10.  I am completely unable to work as I cannot interact with other people face-to-face and no organizations or charities can help me earn money.  At the moment we are relying on my fiances wage.  My fiances previous relationship was terrible, his girlfriend abused him and forced him to take out loans to give money to her, it was incredibly hard for him and when she could no longer squeeze him for cash she left him with all of these debts.  I come from a family which always taught me not to spend money I don't earn but love knows no boundaries and I love my fiance regardless of his debts.  However, we are really struggling to pay off these debts, they total approximately £7,000.  With my mental health deteriorating and me completely unable to work I can't see a way out.  This is putting an unneccessary amount of stress on me and I am not able to recouperate and heal.  If anyone out there can help me financially, in any way at all, I would be so grateful to hear from you.  It is a highly shaming thing, having to ask for help, but I feel it is my last resort.

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moominmama  

About moominmama

Thank you for taking the time to read my page.  I am 20 years old and have suffered from depression and anxiety since the age of 10.  I am completely unable to work as I cannot interact with other people face-to-face and no organizations or charities can help me earn money.  At the moment we are relying on my fiances wage.  My fiances previous relationship was terrible, his girlfriend abused him and forced him to take out loans to give money to her, it was incredibly hard for him and when she could no longer squeeze him for cash she left him with all of these debts.  I come from a family which always taught me not to spend money I don't earn but love knows no boundaries and I love my fiance regardless of his debts.  However, we are really struggling to pay off these debts, they total approximately £7,000.  With my mental health deteriorating and me completely unable to work I can't see a way out.  This is putting an unneccessary amount of stress on me and I am not able to recouperate and heal.  If anyone out there can help me financially, in any way at all, I would be so grateful to hear from you.  It is a highly shaming thing, having to ask for help, but I feel it is my last resort.

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glass_girl  

About glass_girl

 

Hello to anyone reading this!

 

I am a 31 year old woman who is in dire need of dental treatment.

 

I guess the problems started 10 years ago, when I was in college. I saw a local dentist in my college's town, and I'm pretty sure he set me on a path of fear & anxiety regarding dental treatment. I had such a bad experience with him (getting fillings & exam) that I didn't see another dentist for 7 years.

 

I am now at the age where I'd like to begin to think about having children- but chronic dental abscesses scare me regarding the health of my unborn child. There used to be a free clinic for dental work in my area, but it's since been closed. I just graduated from college with a degree in elementary education and presently I'm a substitute teacher. The ridiculous rates of local dentists are making it impossible for me to afford a single introductory exam, let alone any actual treatment. 

My mouth hurts constantly, there are abscesses and I am terrified that I'm doing irreperable damage to my heart & organs. I'm so ashamed to have let my teeth get this way and I feel absolutely helpless & scared. 

Any help from anyone would be sincerely appreciated, thank you, and may God bless you :)

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Starshine  

Mental Health Network

http://psychcentral.com/

See link for more information~~~

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Love1970  

About Love1970

Feeling lost !! Lost my father a year ago and feel as if I have lost a part of myself. Short tempered, critical, negative thinking etc etc. Just not happy about myself and have low self esteem. I care too much, and am easily hurt by the words of others. Want people to like me, but don't like myself, so how can anyone like me. Insecure about everything. Am also falling out with certain people in my life. Most of them are people that probably aren't good friends  anyway.

 I just feel that everything is chaos in my life at the moment. Want to find balance, happiness and inner peace. Want to like myself again. Don't want to worry so much about things, and what people think of me. I would really like it if I could just NOT care so much sometimes.

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Christine616  

Christine616

I'm a simple gal who's always working at staying financially alive. And I try to pay it forward when I can.
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tigerlily1973  

Techniques to fight anxiety

I have to go to the dentist on August 5th.  I'm trying really hard not to work myself up about it.  It is a mile outside of my comfort zone and I will probably have to spend an hour there.  This is something I have not done in 8 years.  When I get outside my comfort zone I start shaking and tearing up.  No matter how much I try to redirect my thoughts and focus, I end up loosing it.  The techniques I use are: positive thoughts, rubber band on my wrist, mp3 player, book for reading, and my deep breathing exercises.  I was wondering if any of you who might suffer from agoraphobia or anxiety disorders might have some techniques I haven't thought of.  I just really want to go and accomplish this task.

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Anonymous  

Mood Gym - FREE help with depression and anxiety

I found this great new site out of austrailia that can help with depression and anxiety. While it is NOT meant to replace your current therapist/therapy or medication, it a a great online tool that incorporates CBT (cognitive behavorial therapy) to assist in the treatment of depression and anxiety. There are tests and a workbook that can help you understand why you think and feel the way you do. Best of all, it is FREE.....

 

MOOD GYM

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Starshine  

About Starshine

Like everyone here we have our own story to be told. There is the ying and yang of life some have it better others worse.

I almost died when I was 4 they told my parents don't expect me to live as it wasn't known but the measles were breaking out inside me. I can remember one janitor at night when I was in isolation had more common sense and it was midnight. He heard me cry and came to the closed door asking what was wrong. I told him I wanted my mom and he said he would call her and my dad. That was all I needed and years later I told my mom this, she told me we never got a call from anyone. My folks and my sister had to stand on crates to barely see me in the hospital. Mom when I did get out and loved levi jeans lived in them would tell me if you ever die I am going to bury you in them. I later figured out why she said that as I came close to dying then and when I was 24 from the birth control pills, got a deep vein clot and more. So I later became prone to leg ulcers and standing at my old job was a big factor in getting them.

I am not big on birth control pills and mine was low dosage as when I had my clot long ago my doctor told me a lot of doctors won't let their wives use them as they see what happens when one does. I had a friend who almost bleed to death from them and another her sister had heart attack at age 32 and died. My sister stopped when they took two cups of fluid from off the under part of my left lung that was the color of tea and thought I had clots in my lung so had to have heart catherization to be sure you didn't in the frankstein operating room and you got to be awake for that. Then seven days later came my leg swelled up and I spent from 7pm to 11pm before a doctor saw me and I was just dragging my leg. He told me you aren't going anywhere.You have a deep vein clot. 

Home life growing up was fun to an extent. Dad was physically abusive to me and mom. That didn't help much in the anxiety department or self esteem department and I had neck jerks. I saw a shrink on my own who just listened and dad freaked when the bill was sent to the house as it wasn't suppose to and forbid me to see him till I was 21. When I turned 21 went to see this shrink again , no medicine and he said he was from Canada and people here think you are nuts if you see one!

I would help out at mom's hair shop after school and the weekends to get away from my dad. I could not wait to move when I late in the 70's to the beach as I always loved it and never had hayfever there!!

I saw a homeopathic doctor in 1985 as no one could help with an ear injury I had. Then he referred me to a lady in Santa Barbara. This lady told me I had a rough life. I never thought of my life being rough.I had more going on than what I mentioned. I had anxiety and panic attacks as a kid from 10-12 yrs old then when I used ear plugs and pushed too hard the room spun two times. I spent two years and my savings trying to get help I have had $200 to my name and then $7 in checking when I later went through my divorce but I had a job, now I don't. 

At the age 38-40 I had anxiety attacks and panic attacks so bad from stress of a supervisor coming after me for my job. The orginazation a big one I won't mention. It would not be till I was 40 when it hit the hardest. It change my appetite and took years to get in the car and drive on the freeway as I would just bottom out in hunger department. I went to normal appetite and weight of 138 to 145 and then to 135 later. 

Oh when I was 39 I heard Stevie Ray Vaughan and Double Trouble and later saw them in concert. I got to met Stevie and Reese getting their autographs and my pic with Stevie then saw them again in Dec 89. That night panic attack happen luckly I had food snack Fritos to eat and had the chance to meet him again but didn't. I started guitar lessons then year later my teacher left after Stevies death months later and it was bitter sweet to play again. His death knocked me to the ground. As the band was no more. After that everything went down hill.

Oh, I have been to San Franisco, Big Sur, Carmel and Marin county which I love. Mill Valley love it. My dad made sure we saw a lot even sleeping in car at night and going in a restruant to clean up. Back then safe to do so. I saw a lot of places but mostly due to dad or my sister living in Northern California.

So when I see someone here going through hard times mentally, physically or fianancially I can relate and try to post in my post what I learned which will be updated soon as mine got lost and so did I for a while from aidpage. I joined in November 2008. 

I have help a lady at Jack in the Box who had a coke when I was let go of my job. I could see her in me and doesn't take much to be where she was. After much going in and out and how to approach her to offer her money as others passed her by. She was shaking and a small coke wasn't helping. I gave her money telling get some food for yourself and her brown eyes looked up saying thank you. I went to my car and bawled as how could this happen in the U.S.? It will still make me cry. I would look for her when I had to go down there and never saw her again. I have helped other homeless people not as much as I would have liked to due to money.

I know this posting is not in chronological order according to years but I am not changing it.

I have met people who knew people in the rocknroll biz, trainded horses for the movie Seabuscuit and had a blast while he was alive seeing him with the horses and my folks took us to the Santa Anita track every weekend so I fell in love with horses. 

I had fun at the beach till I moved back home to learn something else and mom got sick with cancer and died. I wish I would have stayed at the beach as when I moved I knew it wasn't a good thing. Glad I got to be with mom more but two women in the same house with their own way of doing things in the kitchen clash. 

I just hope I can find work soon as this is a big stress for a lot of us. And thank you soulight forver as I would have never saw aidpage if hadn't seen you when I google need help with rent etc as I knew I would have to move from deceased mom's house soon back in November 2008 when I orginally joined. Never left, glitch in computer removed me Sunday the 19 of July 2009 and Emil and AidpageTeam worked hard to get me back on.

Sometimes I know we feel like we are running on empty but have to keep the tank half full.

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Just Jake  

A Spy In the House of Me

Hello everyone. I'm so glad to have found this site. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a few years ago and have dedicated my free time to writing a blog about my daily experiences, recollections of past episodes of manic behavior and current symptomatic episodes (sometimes as they're happening) so that others may fully understand what someone with the disease may be experiencing. Anyway, feel free to visit via this link. 

A Spy In the House of Me

 

Yours,

 

Jake 

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mom e of 4  

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